Post by Ashton Wentworth on Jun 20, 2011 2:11:10 GMT -5
The doors had been locked, vines grew over the windows and the grass was far overgrown. He couldn't even drive up the path it was so unkempt. He had expected some sort of rundown, but nothing like this. He had grown accustomed to driving while he was away in Holland. During training he had been undercover so of course no magic allowed. All in all it wasn't too bad but he missed the liquor. Nothing packed a punch quiet like what you could buy in the wizarding world. Parking his rental car on the side of the street next to the eight foot stone walls it took his first bit of magic in a long time to open the damn lock keeping the gates shut. Such a simple little muggle contraption but it was still quiet effective in most cases. The loud creak echoed as the gate was forced open. Out of respect, he dropped his cigarette into the weeds and stamped it out with the toe of his boot. The wind was at a standstill, like the world was waiting with baited breath, his own felt like it had been caught in his chest. There was a reason that he had avoided this place, he hadn't ever wanted to come back here. There was a reason that he had taken the job in the first place, to get out of, and stay out of this awful country. Granted, being sent to Holland wasn't exactly the change of scenery that he had wanted, that was filled with just as many, if not more memories than Austria was. But, he had really been quiet the perfect choice for the position after all. No attachments, great cover story. He would have been an idiot to refuse. Much like how much of an idiot he would have been to not return whenever he was offered his promotion. After all, chasing coin was all he lived for anymore.
But that had landed him here. Walking up the path the breezed seemed to pick up more, the smell of rust, and mildew was almost overwhelming. He could almost feel himself sinking into the ground as he forced himself higher and closer to the house. The once well lit and inviting house where he had lived for a short while after graduation stood at the top of the drive. Weeds and the sparse flower in the folded over grass, the trees were horribly in need of some trimming. The gate to the backyard revealed a pool full of dead bugs and twigs. The awful green color of a neglected pool glistened up at the sky, the lawn chairs were misplaced and strewn across the deck, upturned and covered in bits. The fountain had long ago been clogged and the shed had been broken into, the contents emptied out and left as they were of no use. The once alabaster walls of the house itself covered in branches and moss, vines twisting their way up to the roof which was covered in leaves. It was just as breathtaking as he remembered.
Now, Ashton was not a sentimental man by any means, he had no regard for most peoples feelings, so whenever he approached the three steps that would take him into the foyer of the house and couldn't lift a foot, it was more than a little frightening for him. His feet felt like lead, the mahogany had started to crack under the weather, but neglect can have that effect. There used to be a team of people who would attend to this house, it was no slight task t undertake. One for the house, pool and lawns. Whenever Georgie had inherited the house it had been almost too much for her to handle on her own, luckily the help had come with the estate, until the medical bills got too much out of hand. Everything seemed to fall apart after that.
Sinking to the bottom step he tossed his bag into the dirt next to him, a small cloud rose up and made him gag, the smell was definitely unpleasant. Abandonment seeped out of every orifice the house possessed. Pinching the bridge of his nose, he extracted what was left of a cigarette from the pack, crumpled it and littered it into the lawn. Feeling around for a lighter, only to find that he didn't have one he left the filter dangling from him lips and allowed his forearms to rest on his bent knees and sighed. Matches, there were matches in the hallway. In the drawer next to the coat rack. It all came flooding back to him, Exasperated he tugged his hands through his hair and rose, leaving his pack behind him. He didn't feel the need to find his key, the lock would let him pass, he'd never could remember to lock the doors behind him anyway, and since he was the last one to leave through these doors alive, chances were it was still open. Shaking, he fingered the doorknob, and it gave way. The musk of dust and old carpet met him first, the memories second. Stepping one foot into the threshold was enough to do it, to the left was the living room, the old couch where she had told him that she had cancer. The stairs ahead of him and to the left of the hallway, where he had disrobed her countless times while they made their way up to one of their bedrooms. To the right the sitting room where they had their engagement tea, the stupidest tradition he could remember sitting through. Down the hall would be the kitchen and the dining room, where there would still be traces of rose petals, and remnants of candles littering the floor and walls. If he strained, he could still smell traces of raspberry and vanilla, Just the way that Georgie had insisted that everything smell. Or was it strawberries? It was almost gone now, or maybe it was. Opening the drawer, the box of fireplace matches still sat, striking one, Georgie's no smoking rule be damned, he lit the stick that caused the end of his wife's life. Karma be damned.
Running his palm down his face he didn't dare head to the kitchen, there the water would run brown and the rotting contents of the fridge would assault his nose he headed up the stairs, somehow the power was still on. and lit the electronic candelabras spaced along the wall. It was like a damned movie flashback, he could see glimpses of the two of them, pressed up against the stairwell, arching her backward and raking his lips across the nape of her neck, sliding her blouse down her shoulders, and true to the movie flashback, he could see her shoulders becoming thinner, her hairline receding. Closing his eyes he jogged up the rest of the stairs. One would think that after going through rigorous training for the ministry that he would be in better shape. Drinking and chain smoking does that to you.
Upstairs wasn't any better, if he went left, it would be there at the end of the hallway, a little room decorated in yellow and green. A pram and rocket pushed up against the wall. TIny bookcases and tiny shelves. Tiny shoes and tiny pants. Little toys and even smaller socks. The smalled leather jacket he had ever seen in his life. Hanging in the closet gathering dust. He should have put it away, but he never could bring himself to enter that room. A small little bed for a small little person, a person that never had entered in to this world. So he went right, past the giant bathroom with the extended shower for the two of their escapades. Her silken robe hanging from the back of her vanity chair, the closet agape from the last time he was here. Whenever he tore out his cloths and slammed the door so hard it had broken one of the hinges, forever to hang there in his anger. He didn't go into his room, with the underwear still scattered across the floor, the sheets undone and the pillows scattered across the floor. Thinking about her he could hear her laughter as he chased her down the hall to her room and flung her over his shoulder. They really hadn't had too many good times in this house, but he was thinking about the few. He could hear doors slamming and yelling too.
Leaning against the peeling wallpaper as he inhaled deeply he let his hands fall down to his sides, feeling around for the cracks and indents in the walls from the dozens of things she had thrown at him out of anger. The reason he had the scar on his bicep, from when she hurled the blender at him for once again being unfaithful. It was an never ending battle in this house. Looking back, it had been stupid, on both of their parts. She never should have married him. He was the worst husband a woman could ask for, but she was never much of a wife either. Oddly enough, the cancer had made their short marriage better if anything. While he had long since removed the wedding ring, sometimes he could see the outline of a small silver band where it used to be. Deciding it best not to attempt a trip into her bedroom, with their 'marital bed' he eased off the wall and ventured into his room, just as he had expected with the clothing all over the place. Drawers upturned and lingerie everywhere. Smirking he extinguished the remnants of his cigarette on his chest of drawers, leaving a black stain on the otherwise purified wood. The carpet was stained from countless nights of drinking and clumsiness. Laughing softly he eased himself onto the bed and sighed. Maybe he could do it after all, rather than attempt to find another apartment and deal with renting maybe he could stay here. It was his house now after all. That is, until he saw the window.
He couldn't even dare to step into the backyard. Not with the plot, the two headstones in perfect alignment. One the perfect smaller replica of the other, just names and dates. The dust of the flowers he had placed above them would be long gone by now. The ceremony had been in Holland, her birthplace, but he had her moved here before she was ever placed in the ground, this was right. Where she belonged. She belonged with their son. The son she had murdered. A son that he would never get to meet because of her and her damned illness. He'd never managed to forgive her. But for what, he wasn't sure. Some days it was for leaving him, others it was for getting sick in the first place. More often than not it was for not giving his son a chance at life. Not that he had ever wanted kids, he still didn't. Some people were meant to be parents but he definitely wasn't one of them. Bouncing a child on his knee and playing ball, teaching somebody their first spell and how to take a shot were not things that he had ever wanted in his life. He hadn't wanted to become attached to any mortal thing, but she had never let him go. Even now, he could feel her calling him. The glass on the window had cracked and turned green from lack of washing. If he was brave enough, they would be right there, just out the window, calling to him.
Over the years he'd gotten numerous offers for the house, it sat on a good plot of land and in it's hay day was one o the more beautiful estates this side of the country, but he never could bring himself to sell. He couldn't stay, originally he was going to just live here until he was reassigned. After all, it was his damn house why shouldn't he be allowed to stay here? Just needed a small sprucing, he'd lived in worse conditions before. He just needed a shower. Just wanted to rest his eyes, but not here. Never here, it would just have to stay and rot for all he cared. With that, he gathered his bag from the lawn and put the damned house in his rear view as quickly as possible. He would just have to find somewhere else to go until he could find more permanent lodging. That really only left one place. He even got a ministry discount.
Honestly, he should have gone here first, saved himself the trip down memory lane but then he would be the same self-flagellating Ashton. Strutting up to the check in desk he requested the room he had called in a reservation for on the drive over, and got the keys. He couldn't have eaten despite the growling from his stomach. Far too much on his mind. He also didn't have to be at work until day after tomorrow, so it was drink or be alone with his thoughts. Sadly, the bar wasn't going to be open for another couple of hours. Something the he really should have put into his plans and timing. Or at least brought something with him. As it was, he had time to kill, and sitting alone in a room that was far too clean wasn't on the list of possibilities. Changing out of his boots and leather jacket for a clean black t-shirt and more comfortable shoes he pocketed his cigarettes and went for something to do. He didn't much like to ski, in fact his only real physical activity was limited to one subject. And he hadn't done that in a good while, something he definitely wasn't proud of. Lighting yet another cigarette he headed out of the room, tucking his room key into the back pocket. And found his feet heading toward the lobby, when something caught his eye, and the feeling of breathlessness as he ascended the stairs at the estate catching up with him. To the Gym it was. It wasn't long before he found himself on a treadmill, still smoking away. Irony be damned.
But that had landed him here. Walking up the path the breezed seemed to pick up more, the smell of rust, and mildew was almost overwhelming. He could almost feel himself sinking into the ground as he forced himself higher and closer to the house. The once well lit and inviting house where he had lived for a short while after graduation stood at the top of the drive. Weeds and the sparse flower in the folded over grass, the trees were horribly in need of some trimming. The gate to the backyard revealed a pool full of dead bugs and twigs. The awful green color of a neglected pool glistened up at the sky, the lawn chairs were misplaced and strewn across the deck, upturned and covered in bits. The fountain had long ago been clogged and the shed had been broken into, the contents emptied out and left as they were of no use. The once alabaster walls of the house itself covered in branches and moss, vines twisting their way up to the roof which was covered in leaves. It was just as breathtaking as he remembered.
Now, Ashton was not a sentimental man by any means, he had no regard for most peoples feelings, so whenever he approached the three steps that would take him into the foyer of the house and couldn't lift a foot, it was more than a little frightening for him. His feet felt like lead, the mahogany had started to crack under the weather, but neglect can have that effect. There used to be a team of people who would attend to this house, it was no slight task t undertake. One for the house, pool and lawns. Whenever Georgie had inherited the house it had been almost too much for her to handle on her own, luckily the help had come with the estate, until the medical bills got too much out of hand. Everything seemed to fall apart after that.
Sinking to the bottom step he tossed his bag into the dirt next to him, a small cloud rose up and made him gag, the smell was definitely unpleasant. Abandonment seeped out of every orifice the house possessed. Pinching the bridge of his nose, he extracted what was left of a cigarette from the pack, crumpled it and littered it into the lawn. Feeling around for a lighter, only to find that he didn't have one he left the filter dangling from him lips and allowed his forearms to rest on his bent knees and sighed. Matches, there were matches in the hallway. In the drawer next to the coat rack. It all came flooding back to him, Exasperated he tugged his hands through his hair and rose, leaving his pack behind him. He didn't feel the need to find his key, the lock would let him pass, he'd never could remember to lock the doors behind him anyway, and since he was the last one to leave through these doors alive, chances were it was still open. Shaking, he fingered the doorknob, and it gave way. The musk of dust and old carpet met him first, the memories second. Stepping one foot into the threshold was enough to do it, to the left was the living room, the old couch where she had told him that she had cancer. The stairs ahead of him and to the left of the hallway, where he had disrobed her countless times while they made their way up to one of their bedrooms. To the right the sitting room where they had their engagement tea, the stupidest tradition he could remember sitting through. Down the hall would be the kitchen and the dining room, where there would still be traces of rose petals, and remnants of candles littering the floor and walls. If he strained, he could still smell traces of raspberry and vanilla, Just the way that Georgie had insisted that everything smell. Or was it strawberries? It was almost gone now, or maybe it was. Opening the drawer, the box of fireplace matches still sat, striking one, Georgie's no smoking rule be damned, he lit the stick that caused the end of his wife's life. Karma be damned.
Running his palm down his face he didn't dare head to the kitchen, there the water would run brown and the rotting contents of the fridge would assault his nose he headed up the stairs, somehow the power was still on. and lit the electronic candelabras spaced along the wall. It was like a damned movie flashback, he could see glimpses of the two of them, pressed up against the stairwell, arching her backward and raking his lips across the nape of her neck, sliding her blouse down her shoulders, and true to the movie flashback, he could see her shoulders becoming thinner, her hairline receding. Closing his eyes he jogged up the rest of the stairs. One would think that after going through rigorous training for the ministry that he would be in better shape. Drinking and chain smoking does that to you.
Upstairs wasn't any better, if he went left, it would be there at the end of the hallway, a little room decorated in yellow and green. A pram and rocket pushed up against the wall. TIny bookcases and tiny shelves. Tiny shoes and tiny pants. Little toys and even smaller socks. The smalled leather jacket he had ever seen in his life. Hanging in the closet gathering dust. He should have put it away, but he never could bring himself to enter that room. A small little bed for a small little person, a person that never had entered in to this world. So he went right, past the giant bathroom with the extended shower for the two of their escapades. Her silken robe hanging from the back of her vanity chair, the closet agape from the last time he was here. Whenever he tore out his cloths and slammed the door so hard it had broken one of the hinges, forever to hang there in his anger. He didn't go into his room, with the underwear still scattered across the floor, the sheets undone and the pillows scattered across the floor. Thinking about her he could hear her laughter as he chased her down the hall to her room and flung her over his shoulder. They really hadn't had too many good times in this house, but he was thinking about the few. He could hear doors slamming and yelling too.
Leaning against the peeling wallpaper as he inhaled deeply he let his hands fall down to his sides, feeling around for the cracks and indents in the walls from the dozens of things she had thrown at him out of anger. The reason he had the scar on his bicep, from when she hurled the blender at him for once again being unfaithful. It was an never ending battle in this house. Looking back, it had been stupid, on both of their parts. She never should have married him. He was the worst husband a woman could ask for, but she was never much of a wife either. Oddly enough, the cancer had made their short marriage better if anything. While he had long since removed the wedding ring, sometimes he could see the outline of a small silver band where it used to be. Deciding it best not to attempt a trip into her bedroom, with their 'marital bed' he eased off the wall and ventured into his room, just as he had expected with the clothing all over the place. Drawers upturned and lingerie everywhere. Smirking he extinguished the remnants of his cigarette on his chest of drawers, leaving a black stain on the otherwise purified wood. The carpet was stained from countless nights of drinking and clumsiness. Laughing softly he eased himself onto the bed and sighed. Maybe he could do it after all, rather than attempt to find another apartment and deal with renting maybe he could stay here. It was his house now after all. That is, until he saw the window.
He couldn't even dare to step into the backyard. Not with the plot, the two headstones in perfect alignment. One the perfect smaller replica of the other, just names and dates. The dust of the flowers he had placed above them would be long gone by now. The ceremony had been in Holland, her birthplace, but he had her moved here before she was ever placed in the ground, this was right. Where she belonged. She belonged with their son. The son she had murdered. A son that he would never get to meet because of her and her damned illness. He'd never managed to forgive her. But for what, he wasn't sure. Some days it was for leaving him, others it was for getting sick in the first place. More often than not it was for not giving his son a chance at life. Not that he had ever wanted kids, he still didn't. Some people were meant to be parents but he definitely wasn't one of them. Bouncing a child on his knee and playing ball, teaching somebody their first spell and how to take a shot were not things that he had ever wanted in his life. He hadn't wanted to become attached to any mortal thing, but she had never let him go. Even now, he could feel her calling him. The glass on the window had cracked and turned green from lack of washing. If he was brave enough, they would be right there, just out the window, calling to him.
Over the years he'd gotten numerous offers for the house, it sat on a good plot of land and in it's hay day was one o the more beautiful estates this side of the country, but he never could bring himself to sell. He couldn't stay, originally he was going to just live here until he was reassigned. After all, it was his damn house why shouldn't he be allowed to stay here? Just needed a small sprucing, he'd lived in worse conditions before. He just needed a shower. Just wanted to rest his eyes, but not here. Never here, it would just have to stay and rot for all he cared. With that, he gathered his bag from the lawn and put the damned house in his rear view as quickly as possible. He would just have to find somewhere else to go until he could find more permanent lodging. That really only left one place. He even got a ministry discount.
Honestly, he should have gone here first, saved himself the trip down memory lane but then he would be the same self-flagellating Ashton. Strutting up to the check in desk he requested the room he had called in a reservation for on the drive over, and got the keys. He couldn't have eaten despite the growling from his stomach. Far too much on his mind. He also didn't have to be at work until day after tomorrow, so it was drink or be alone with his thoughts. Sadly, the bar wasn't going to be open for another couple of hours. Something the he really should have put into his plans and timing. Or at least brought something with him. As it was, he had time to kill, and sitting alone in a room that was far too clean wasn't on the list of possibilities. Changing out of his boots and leather jacket for a clean black t-shirt and more comfortable shoes he pocketed his cigarettes and went for something to do. He didn't much like to ski, in fact his only real physical activity was limited to one subject. And he hadn't done that in a good while, something he definitely wasn't proud of. Lighting yet another cigarette he headed out of the room, tucking his room key into the back pocket. And found his feet heading toward the lobby, when something caught his eye, and the feeling of breathlessness as he ascended the stairs at the estate catching up with him. To the Gym it was. It wasn't long before he found himself on a treadmill, still smoking away. Irony be damned.